no targets this year

It is late enough into the new year to have decided the targets (and to have begun slipping on them), so I guess it is time I faced the fact that this year, I will not be setting any targets, or making any (not-so) new year resolutions.

Last year, I had set targets–two sets of them. One set was for if I pushed myself, and the other set was my bare minimum. I did achieve the bare minimum targets, so I guess I should have been happy at year end, but I felt totally flat about it Because, over the year, I became a different person. The person I was at the beginning of the year may have loved the fact that I met my targets despite rather tough challenges, but the person I was at the end of the year didn’t think the targets represented my current direction in life.

So, as I do not know what sort of person I will be at the end of the year, I am not setting targets this year. Or making any of those resolutions, not even a simple new age one that says, I will ‘live in the present moment.’

Things change too fast, and I change too fast, and I’d rather not peg myself down or keep measuring myself with an outdated scale.

I do have some directions and priorities, though. Like caregiving is an important aspect of my life, and so is sharing my caregiving experience. Writing is important, and so is introspection. And I want to do stuff I like, such as reading a lot, learning new stuff, take long walks, and so on. But I am not committing myself to any ‘deliverables’ and ‘numbers’ on these.

I want to just stay open and flexible, and let the days lead me on…for at least this year.

Is that a wimpy way of wriggling out of commitment and effort? Not sure…but what I saw was, once I decided that there are no targets, I actually got a rush of energy. Let’s see how long that lasts 🙂

About Swapna Kishore
I'm a writer, blogger, and resource person for dementia/ caregiving in India. I have also been a dementia caregiver for well over a decade, and am deeply concerned about dementia care in India; on this blog I share my personal caregiving journey, my experiences as a resource person for dementia care, and musings on life, aging, dementia in India, and such sundries. More about me and the work I do for dementia care. For structured information on dementia, for discussions, tools and tips on caregiving issues, for resources in India, and for caregiver interviews, please check my website (or its Hindi version, For videos on dementia caregiving (English and Hindi), check the youtube channel here.

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